Wednesday, May 23, 2012

& I’m Wondering . . . Yet Again… Forever… Always!!!


Like I’ve said before… our mind is a beautiful complex machine that works in its quarter billion mysterious ways… we have the tendency to learn… unlearn… exhibit what we have learned… think… forecast… act accordingly… blah blah blah!!! We think… we understand… we estimate… we consider… we rubbish… we re-consider… we wonder… WONDER!!! & dammit… do I wonder… I wonder a lot… I wonder so much at time… about a gazillion things… I wonder enough that this is my 2nd post dedicated to wondering… same wonder-full thought… just new things to wonder about… http://geets13.blogspot.in/2010/01/wonder-o-meter.html was the last one!

Off late I was wondering…

Ive been the boomerang.. it din’t matter how u threw me… I’d always turn back around & be back in the game… I would always think in my head I wont ever go back… cuz u don’t deserve me… but I’d eventually always make the same mistake… & when it was actually all said & done… & I had cried & sweared enough & when the once I got sympathies started to feel like “there she goes again”… I wore the other face & put up a smile… & when I dint start all about it… they’d ask me.. how am I doing… I would smile & say that im doing just fine… I’d lie & say that you’re not on my mind… but.. when I’d see them holding hands & walking as twos… I’ve been forced to face the fact… that im… im NOT over you… & I wonder... if I ever will get over you… EVER?

& then when everybody waits for me to breakdown & fall out.. while everybody needs to hear that one more crispy piece of gossip to sympathise with me in the face & make me the laughing stock behind my back… when everyone is waiting for me to do that one more stupid thing… I suddenly realize “what doesn’t kill you makes u stronger eh?”… & that I need nobody else to complete me… SUDDENLY, comes along this someone new.. I leave behind the tears & smile once again… oh yea… & its again brighter than the sun… so this is good bye… after all… the old flame needs to be blown off to hit the dark… so that YOU can enjoy the sun shine once again… eh? But then it makes me wonder… there is this someone new & im smiling all over again… did I ever give a fuck to you? & I have witnessed this like uuuuumm… yea… I’ve had my share of love affairs…

Love… love has always made me wonder… I think I first understood love as an emotion that I felt for the BACKSTREET BOYS… But what amazes me is how I now feel about the new boy band… “One Direction”… awwwwwwwwwwwwwww… I feel like a love struck teenager all over again… their voices… their peppiness… I am soooooooo in love all over again… im sorry Backstreet Boys.. I know I thought no one could ever replace you… not even a real lover… & a real lover actually NEVER came even remotely close… but One Direction beat you already… made me wonder, if my love for you was ever so true? Or am I just a bubbly peppy crazy forever teenager at heart who loves the bubblegum pop boy bands “TILL DATE”???

But then I think about John Mayer… & I wonder if I actually feel if that is love or do I just feel what a *THE* celebrity feels… I mean seriously… “Neon” is my caller tune cuz I actually am “always buzzing just like… Neon… NEON”… & when I hear him sing… when I hear those words… “& this is not to say… there never comes a day… ill take my chances & start again… & when I look behind.. I’ll thank my younger time… PERFECTLY LONELY”… or when he says… “MY STUPID MOUTH has got me in trouble… ive said too much again… I’d rather be a mystery, than she "he in my case" desert me… I’m never speaking up again.. STARTING NOW”… but hell somebody do something about all this wondering.. cuz I cant stop the talking as long as there is this wondering!!! ;P

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Would You Love Me?

Would you love me...
when i smile so bright? &...
would you love me...
when i have tears in my eyes? &...
would you love me...
when i ask you to stay? but...
would you love me...
when i push you away?


would you love me...
cuz i'm the hottest you could find? &...
would you love me...
cuz everyone else calls you mine? &...
would you love me...
cuz i'm where the party starts? but...
would you love me...
when i'd be drunk on a helluva lot?



would you love me...
when i kiss your lips goodbye? &...
would you love me...
when i hug your sweet return? &...
would you love me...
cuz you love my soul? but...
would you love me...
when i'm outta control?


would you love me...
when i whisper in your ear "honey"? &...
would you love me...
when i make lots of money? &...
would you love me...
when i stand by you in your faults? but...
would you love me...
when i take my fall?


would you love me...
as years pass by?
&...
would you love me...
as old age comes along?
&...
would you love me...
as i may irritate & fight?
but...
would you love me...
as i'd love you still?

I'm a Bomb!


No, you're not just a boy... you're the man tonight... i'll walk away from you... but i'll never be outta sight... you're not the regular 6 or a 7... but even if you ain't a 10, you're definitely a 9.9... tonight the tables turn... i know you've got your eyes on me... yet, im not the hunted... & even if you've never been preyed on before... i AM your hunter tonight!!!


The years you have put into your some "teen" inch biceps... are gonna fail... cuz you "my darling" are gonna face my cherry bombs this night! you may think of yourself as a sky-scrapper, but from where i see, you're turning into nothing but debris... you think you're rock solid... but from where i see, you're just ice turning into water!!!

you think you've got all the right moves... but i'm ready to explode... can you hear me tick??? you think i'm nothing more than sweet sunshine... but, i'm a bomb baby... i can shred you into pieces... because the man before you... turned on the wrong switch!!! what can a chick do eh? but you better beware of me... & use steady hands... cuz you're not dealing with just cherry bombs popping anymore... to mess with me... you needa put on your armour man!

Try... Make it Happen!

It's not today that defines your life... so don't look at its current status & go "MY LIFE SUCKS"... apparently you are the one responsible in any case... Life is a series of events... from today, tomorrow & yesterday... Life is not what happened to you... it not what happens to you... that's destiny... Life is what you make outta what is happening!!!

People say life is not a fair game... well.. it ain't supposed to be darlin'... cuz even if everyone got everything that they need... there will always be wants & desires to supersede the needs... lets' face it fellas... we as human beings... always want MORE... & as long as there is the "this much" more; life won't be *i stand corrected*, life CAN'T be fair!!!

he is watching from up above... & there are more than some billion of us... life can't be fair to all in any case eh? it may or may not have been fair to you... you're looking at it from your perspective... it IS YOUR opinion... but, its not a matter of choice now is it? its not something we can have command on, now can we? it can give us anything.. you may take it or leave it right? we can crib... sure we can complain... but we can also TRY... we can try & BREAK EVEN with life!

Just today the papers read the happy results of IIT... im sure that are many a lakhs broken dreams... hearts... yea whatever... but there also are THERE who struck out with what everyone else would have believed should have been their destiny... i mean what parents under this sun would ever suggest to their kids (even now) "sonny, if you wanna ace the JEE, you better study no more than 4 hours... get ample sleep & you better unwind on FB" apparently, that's what the JEE topper did this year.. ain't it? & how many of us do NOT believe in the "like father, like son" theory? so how does the son of a vegetable seller crack one of the toughest examinations ever?

these guys should have been the average Joes... right? That should have been their life... right? but you know how it goes... life can either happen to you... or you can TRY & MAKE IT HAPPEN... YOUR WAY!!!