For Some Reason...

I have never been a bright student... unless you consider the non competitive up till 4th standard as a benchmark for brightness... because tab tak, i was good... then, started the decline... everyone around me put up way too many hopes on me.. i will do this.. i will do that... docter banegi ladki... no, i dont wanna be a doctor... theek hai,, engineer ban ja... ummm... doctor bhi nai banegi, engineer bhi nai, toh kya jhaadu pochay waali banegi... WTF... aren't there any other professions apart from these three??? apparently, not! look at what you have done to yourself... you were the brightest in the family... now everyone else is ahead of you...

toh theek hai.. ban gai engineer... & because i was scared of Redos... i cleared 'em all in one go... toh the status was high again... wow... i have never heard of an engineer who has not given a repeat paper... please for Godz sake, i have heard of many... i was not in IIT... but for some reason, i knew i was not the black sheep... i knew i could get a decent package.. a decent job... & i did... Infosys, i believe is decent...

now, i am in Amity... a lotta people ask me why Amity post Infy... & i know why... i know i am not IIM material... even i was... i don't wanna be there... cuz i wanna jez chill... enoy life ya... n then... everyone tells me... you must be stupid to join Amity... n i think in my heart... & i believe in the same... that for some reason.. my decision ain't wrong... & one day... when i will be where i want to be... you will say... for some reason.. i din't believe she was right.... but for some reason... she turned up to be absolutely right!

CUZ i believe... for some reason... that i am RIGHT... :)

Hope Vs. Faith!

today, tomorrow & everyday... u'll come across so many people... some would be your family.... some your frenz... some acquaintances.... some "you recognize their face"... & some sheer strangers...

you see her smiling... you're jealous of her life...you see her smiling... you think her life is good... you wonder how to make your life just like hers... you wish you could smile just like her.... cuz you see her smiling.... but you're unaware of her pain... you sit next to her... & get talking about your life...

you realize that your's is so much better.... but you don't understand the reason why shez smiling... you have a family to support u... you have a life... but you're scared deep inside about the horrors of tomorrow... but you see her smiling... right through her sorrow.... you ask her... how amidst such trouble... can you smile?

she smiles at you... & tells you.... i dont have family support... i have a fucked up life.... but im not giving up... m putting up this fight... i dont believe in superstition.... i dont believe in others.... but i follow logic... & i have faith... in myself... i know for a fact... that even if the world turns its back on me... i still will have my faith... no matter how many times life brings me down... i will resurrect from ashes... if i keep my faith...


she gave you a lesson.... she taught you how... to stand tall when everything around you falls... she said that half the battle is won if you can conquer your brain... & that God will edit your future.... if only you work towards your faith.... she said that faith builds positive energies around you... never has a man got to the top if he believed others.... to get anywhere in life... you gotta have belief in yourself!!!

Love... Trust... & Blaaaah!!!

its a widely known fact... that women emote better than men... & that even though they get insecure pretty fast... they are the ones who trust others the most...

but i know a girl... who just cant seem to trust nobody... she can never take anyones' words... she wants proof for every darn thing under this Sun...

yes... that girl is me... i cant even trust the closest of my family... the people i love the most... the only ones that i have witnessed standing by me when the whole freaking world was laughing at me... yet... i don't trust that they will stand by me the next time... i don't trust that they know what is the best for me... i don't trust that their decision is the right one... they have never hurt me... yet i check their intentions....

i wonder what i will do ahead in my life... if i really cant trust anybody... :(

but i guess... i have been hurt way too many times by multiple people outside of my family... that makes it hard for me to trust just about anybody! :(