To Change… Or to Love???

You know… like I just said… the best thing about life is… it is only you… & the best thing about you is… it is obviously you dodo… the best way to live life is to love yourself… the second best way is to love those who truly love you… these could include your parents… your sibling… your lover… even your best friend… you know the best thing about these kinna people who love you truly & unconditionally? Well, they know you inside out… they not just know the best things about you… they also know your flaws… & the best part is… they actually love you for your flaws… they love you the way you are… they don’t expect you to change… not even by a centimeter…

so… if you believe you love somebody… think through… do you love them for everything that they do… do you love them inspite of each & every flaw of theirs??? Do you love them when they act like a complete doofus in front of friends & family? Do you love them inspite of the fact that they act like a douchebag when angry??? Do you expect them to change for you? Do you expect them not to flirt with another, even healthy flirting is a problem? Do you have a problem with them adding random people they don’t know, just because they have multiple common friends? Do you expect them to change in terms of anything? Do you like everything about them… their dressing style? The way they sit? The way they talk? The way they act? The way the behave? The way they think? Do you ACTUALLY love everything about them?

If yes… then volla… you found your true love… but ill tell you what… most people under this sun, just love one person on this earth… there is only one person, who they care for like crazy… there is only one person they love so much that they don’t wanna change one thing about them!!! This one person is they themselves… it’s a fundamental fact… they are not narcissist… because they don’t blabber about themselves all day long… they are not selfish… its ones’ fundamental right to love oneself… they are not shallow… they just haven’t found their true love… & when they find their true love… they change on their own… they wanna change on their own… they wanna be a better person… so don’t try & change another for you… love them for exactly the way they are… if there are any gaps… they will fill up on their own… J

Its Always For the BEST…

You know the best thing about being misunderstood? You get a chance to prove yourself…

You know the best thing about being cheated? You learn to love yourself the most…

You know the best thing about being criticized? Now, you know how to be better…

You know the best thing about an ending? It paves way for a beautiful new start…

You know the best thing about loving some one? You become beyond yourself…

You know the best thing about falling into a ditch? You’ll learn to be careful…

You know the best thing about being hit on the face? You learn to be agile…

You know the best thing about hitting the bottom? The only way is up…

You know the best thing about being alone? You can explore urself…

You know the best thing about losing love? You strive to be better…

You know the best thing about losing it all? Now, you can’t lose…

You know the best thing about failing? Now, you’ll try harder…

You know the best thing about tumbling? You walk erect…

You know the best thing about hurting? You’re stronger…

You know the best thing about life??? It is only YOU!!!

Happiness is a state of mind!!!

Happiness is a state of mind… every human being strives to be happy… they play mind games… to achieve what they believe will get them happiness…most people feel that they are unlucky to be born the way they are… they see tall fair pretty faces around them & see how every1 wants to be with them & how they are all alone in the crowd… they are not happy about their lives… but its just their state of mind… would they like to trade shoes.. maybe yes… & would the tall pretty fair girl like to trade her shoes… maybe yes… why??? Because every1 wants to be with her… but not because of her intelligentsia… they wanna be with her to show off to the world that they got a trophy by their side… or maybe because a 100 cheapsters hit on her on a daily basis & stalk her so much that she just cant sleep at night…. would you rather be alone or be stalked or considered a show piece bimbo??? Like I said… happiness is a state of mind!!!

You feel that you wanna live in mortgage free homes… have stalks of cash to squander… a big house with an AC, LCD blah blah maybe even a jacuzzi… that will bring you happiness eh??? Owning a iphone & a viao… wearing a rolex & spraying on a Gucci… would make you feel nice… Maybe… but will it make you happy??? It’s a well established fact, that the more money you begin to make… the more you start to lose your sleep over it… at all points in time you’re scared that some1 might break into your house & take away your valuables… or that your children are plotting how to kill you so they can have their share from the will… wouldn’t you like to trade some of this tension for a little less showoff??? Would you rather not be content as a middle class man who is loved by his family??? Like I said… happiness is a state of mind!!!

You may feel that you need to work you’re a** off for your career so that you can retire early, take care of your old parents, have your spouse & kids all the things in this world… you work over time… your kids have the highest pocket money… you feel elated, proud… your wife shows off the diamonds you gifted to her… you get an ego boost… you work even harder to make more money… slowly giving all your time to work… but when you ultimately retire… you realize you wanted to take care of your parents but they are no more… you realize that you wanted to see your children happy, but they are happy with their lives that doesn’t have u as a part, they hang out with frenz all day & night & spend the money that your toiled for… your wife doesn’t love you anymore & is involved with another man cuz you never gave her time when she needed… you toiled so hard to be happy… but are you happy??? Like I said… happiness is a state of mind!!!

So go ahead & dig deeper.. figure out where your happiness lies… it cannot be shallow… it cannot be about money… it gotta be with what/who you love under the blue skies with smiles that shine!!! J

& John Mayer Does It…

I think this is the most beautiful break up song ever…. But for some reason... I have these insane side thoughts… read thru…. To see how ill find another you ;P

it's really over, you made your stand (the 1^st step is to accept its over, I ACCEPT)
You got me crying, as was your plan (yea, vent it out, let ‘em have the sadistic pleasure)
But when my loneliness is through, I'm gonna find another you (yea, cuz there are millions like you… just 1 like me!)

You take your sweaters (they don’t fit me in any case ;P)
You take your time (yea, kill me softly u b****)
You might have your reasons, but you will never have my rhymes (yea, you have excuses but I got talent here, babe)
I'm gonna sing my way away from blue (I personally feel red is attractive)
I'm gonna find another you (yea, cuz the likes of you thrive like bacteria… gazillions :P)

When I was your lover (past tense, you sucked all my blood that u could have)
No one else would do (im sure no one will ever be better “still”)
If I'm forced to find another, I hope she looks like you (yea, cuz you’re a pretty face)
Yeah and she's nicer too (cuz ur the ugly base)

So go on baby (shoooo… get lost)
Make your little get away (I never actually needed you)
My pride will keep me company (ive always been your better half :P I still am a better person)
And you just gave yours all away (I guess it don’t mean anything to u)
Now I'm gonna dress myself for two (ofcourse, I got more money to spend on self)
Once for me and once for someone new (there’s plenty of fish in the ocean baby)
I'm gonna do somethings you wouldn't let me do (you could never change me… I still love what I used to love… just left them to please you)
Oh I'm gonna find another youuuuuu ooooo ooooo ooooooo (but u’ll never find some1 to love u like I used to ;P)

Who Are You? The Real You???

Im the type that always smiles… Im the type most envy… im the type who are not afraid of nothin… im not the type to get my heart broken or cry… no matter how much u mean to me… if u gimme a f***, ill give u your f*** back… cuz no matter how important u be… ill always be more important to me… no matter how hard you try & bring me down, I will fight… cuz, im like the heroes that exists only in fairy tales… im like the ant that climbs the wall & never gives up inspite of fallin’ a million times… im not like the princess who hurts from a pea… im like the Lara Croft who can kick your bloody b***!!!

Im the kind who steals a million hearts… im not the type to give away mine… that’s why I never let you hold me baby… & just smile at you when u say that u love me … cuz im not in for a barter of hearts… I may never give u mine… even if you gimme urs for a start… I may believe in you for a while.. but if I see your true colors… im not the type who will let you run over me bcuz of the “in love” thing!!! Because relationships don’t go down very well with me anymore… I don’t need a lover… I can love thyself… if u wanna mean something to me.. be my best friend instead!!!

Cuz ive been a ship in the middle of a whirlpool… but now im the whole freakin’ whirlpool itself… so if u really wanna love me… love me from a distance… cuz I come with a “I bite” guarantee… I’ve been hit so hard… but I learned from it “the art of hitting in way that wrecks”… to love me or not… is at your own risk… if you’re not ready to loose it all… you will be shattered… if you are… you may work a miracle!!!

But don’t expect me to let you into my door… you will hapta barge in… I like to put up a fight… you would hapta live up to it as well… don’t expect me to give it to you on purpose… you will hapta steal my heart… & if my abuses amuse you enough, you may choose to stick around… but don’t try & play the “im gonna leave” if u don’t tone down this attitude of yours… cuz I will show you the door right away… its crazy how much I can do for you… but I wont, until I see that you’re addicted to me… I don’t live in moderations… & now, im going beyond extremes… ive never been fond of Gandhi… I have always loved the rollercoaster rides ;P

The Only Way Out!!!

He looked her in the eye & said “you’re the best thing that could happen to me! If im to loose you, I would be the biggest loser on this Earth!” she smiled gently at looked back at him & said sweetly “you’re not a loser… I have faith in you… you will never loose me!” he said “I may not be the best choice for you, but you are the best & you deserve the best! I dunno if ill ever be able to have a decent job, a decent life… I wanna make sure you have all of that… so if you feel ever, that I wont be able to keep you happy, you can move on… I will always be committed to you… but you will always be free!”

 

That is the sweetest thing one can say ever… right??? What the EFF!!! Lovers… don’t be deceived… cuz that is the cheesiest thing one can tell you to get rid of you & stay in your good books… Now, if you don’t wanna be the baddy, & tell them on their face that they don’t interest you anymore & u really wanna get outta this, then, there are two ways of doing it…

1. Be the nice person… roll the ball into the others’ court…

 “its not u… its me…” “you’re just perfect… the issue is me…” “im so jealous of the person who will get to marry you!!!” “im not good enough for you… you can get any person in the whole world”… make them feel as if you’re doing it for them… for their happiness… make them believe that u genuinely believe that they are just amazing & that you don’t stand anyplace in comparison!!! This is the best way to do it.. if it works… most men consider women the dumb species, & “label” them dumb when they buy this 1… but, but, but, women tend to buy this one because either they themselves are bored of you or they actually think you’re not good enough for them!!! Women can’t do away with men this way… they gotta do reverse psychology… nag… nag… nag… nag to the limit… so that the men wanna break up & end up saying the above mentioned… infact… ensure that you keep dropping some bombs every now & then… to ensure they don’t even try & get back… leave nasty messages & then apologize; so they think you’re a psycho & it was a right decision to leave you!!!

2. Act helpless… fire through the parents shoulders… & make the other the baddy…

“I love you… our parents will hapta understand”… then, when you’re able to convince your parents, “im so glad you were able to convince your parents… will you come along with me when I talk to mine???”… after telling parents about the lover but not being sure if it’s the right time, “my parents are not agreeing, they say its not right… I think you should move on!!!”… when you speak to the parents that the other wanted you to meet when they talk to them about you two “my parents are offended… they say they will die but wont let this happen… I love you so much but you spoiled it all by talking to them… you took away the last hope… why did you do this.. now there is no scope… this has to end… you were my everything… now I will hapta live my life all alone… & when my parents will want me to marry & they will get to know that I wont because still I love you, then they will hate me!!!”  This is a bad way to end it… but this will make the other either guilt conscious or angry… in any case, either they will be too ashamed to talk to you again or too angry to ever wanna see your face again… whatever… it still works!!!

In short, KISSing it… when breaking up, you can either be bad or nice… & if you wanna deceive yourself & the world that you’re nice, then you will hapta either pretend to be bad & make the other nice… or you will hapta pretend to be nice & make the other bad!

It Don’t Lie!!!

Shakira did her amazing dance & made many of her “weird lyrics” songs super duper hits… I mean genuinely, HIPS don’t lie??? :O DO THEY EVEN SPEAK??? As far as I know the only sound they make is farting when your stomach is upset & please… they are always covered so don’t even go about telling me that they speak by leaps & bounds even without sayin’ a word… yes, im aware of the hip interpretations that defines the character of a woman & her the level of her desirability in the mens’ dictionary, but believe me… its all bull crap… its always the EYES that say it all!!!

Eyes are the doors to one’s real self… eyes never lie… ever noticed as a kid, your parents always said, “look me in the eye & say that” & you just couldn’t vomit the lie that you mugged up a 100 1000 times… the eyes have it… they can see right through you… they can help you judge’s ones’ heart… ones’ intentions!!!

When you’re surprised, your eyes pop put…

When you’re happy, they light up so bright…

When you’re sad, they become wet…

When you’re angry, they become red…

When you’re in love, they become enigmatic…

When you’re in lust, they look greedy…

When you’re true/confident, they bore into anothers’…

When you’re lying/under confident, they look here there…

In short… no matter how good a deceiver you be… your eyes never lie… they will always give away your intentions… so the next time you wanna judge a person… look them in the eye… it’s the only thing that doesn’t lie ;P

Have You Ever???

Have you ever bullied someone so much that you made them cry?

I have…

Did you ever feel bad about it???

I have…

Have you ever apologized to that person when you saw them at a mall 10 years later?

I have…

Why apologize???

Because it is important to accept your mistakes!!!

Have you been loved by someone unconditionally?

I have…

Did you ever break their heart?

I have…

Did you explain?

I have…

Did you apologize?

I have…

Why apologize?

Because it is important to help the other move on if you’re not gonna be with them!!!

Have you ever loved someone unconditionally?

I have…

Have you had your heart broken?

I have…

Have u felt rage/fury/anger about it?

I have…

Did you say nasty things?

I have…

Did you apologize?

I have…

Why apologize???

Because, just because you love someone, doesn’t mean you own them… & just because they have been mean to you, doesn’t mean you can be nasty to them!!!

Why not?

Well, have you ever toppled & taken a fall?

I have…

Did random people laugh at you?

They did… but how is that relevant?

It is.. Have you ever helped a random person who toppled & fell right in front of you?

I have…

Why… other people made fun of you when you fell, why help others??

Because im a nice person!

I guess you already know why I apologized!!! Afterall, Im a nice person too!!! J

Misunderstood!!!

“I Love you”, he said, with sincerity in his voice & looked at her as if without her, he would die… He continued to say, “somehow I know, deep inside my heart, you are the only one for me! I would rather die, than live without you! You are my own angel… sent from the heavens above… just so I can love! Accept my love… & I shall love you for eternity… I shall love you till death does us apart… Be my love till the end, cuz my love for u is all I got!”

She looked at him sternly & said “What you say is very flattering, but even if I’m with you, you’d still die!” he looked at her all puzzled… she put on a sweet smile to her beautiful face & said “Love is for the heart, it doesn’t cater to the stomach… with just love, we’d any which way die! Romance won’t last a lifetime “without food”, in fact, it won’t even last a decade… I’d rather be alive & loveless than to be loved by you!”

He turned around & walked back with his head stooped low… He lay in his bed sleepless at nights… the pain killing him everyday… I love her so much, I’d do anything for her… why can she not understand… money can buy you everything in this world but true happiness… my love can give her true happiness… why doesn’t she love me? I know I can conquer the whole world if only she is with me! I wish she could turn around… turn around see me cry… I wish she knew how much I love her… I would give anything for her… but I wish for her, every happiness, even if she thinks she will find it without me!!! I just hope she remembers me fondly, in her memories as the guy who loves her!!!

What he did not know is, that she loved him just as much… maybe even some more… but what is the intensity of his love… she wasn’t sure… she wanted to hear “I’d rather spend 10 days of life with you, than spend a lifeless lifetime alone!!!”… so she told him that she’d rather be loveless, when actually, about money, she couldn’t care less… it broke her heart to see him turn around & walk away… she thought to herself he never loved me truly anyway… cuz if he did, he would pursue me against all odds… he wouldn’t have chosen the easy way out by simply walking away!!!

Dream On…

Everyone dreams… everyday… it’s a well established fact… you see between 4 – 7 dreams every night… just that, you tend to remember some… & forget some… dreaming is how your brain collates all of what is happening in your life & presents it to you in a manner that calls for immediate attention!!!

Sometimes, you see a nightmare & wake up sweating… sometimes you have these recurring dreams with the same people, same story line, saaame theme… sometimes in your dream you find answers to question you just couldn’t answer when you were awake… sometimes you dream up your future… & sometime you have these epic dreams that are so grand that it just changes your life, your thinking!!!

Dreams always mean something… always!!! im sure we all have dreamed of running because we are being chased… mostly, we don’t see who/what is chasing us… actually, being chased in your dream represents your way of coping with fear, stress or various situations in your waking life… you’re just running away & avoiding it… &, a dream always has a lesson… we need to sit & gain an insight on who is this attacker… next time, turn around & confront your pursuer… you may be surprised to see that it could even be a part of you… your anger, jealously, love... any part of you!!!

Im not making this up… I actually read up a book on interpreting dreams bcuz I have been having really bad dreams off late… one day I saw myself die a painful death… but that dint make me read the book… since the past 1 n a ½ months, I have been dreaming of my ex accepting that he was wrong & begging for forgiveness… but that dint urge me to read the book either… but day before, I literarily woke up in flames cuz I saw my own blood sister die… I told every1 in the family, cuz apparently if you tell people such stuff, it doesn’t happen… but I couldn’t find peace… so I read up this book ONLINE!!!

Apparently, seeing yourself die symbolizes involvement in a deeply painful relationship &/or inner changes, transformation, self-discovery & positive development that is happening within you or in your life… a recurring dream about my ex apologizing has got nothing to do with him… its how I perceive as what he should be feeling or doing… & to see death of a loved one suggests that you lack an aspect or quality that your loved one embodies... Yeah, my sister is younger to me by 6, but much more mature… so I know what I lack!!! Although death dreams may bring out fear or anxiety, they are often considered a positive signal… nothing to bell the alarm!!!

So I guess the way to live is… Dream on… & come on… learn something outta it as well… afterall… if your brain is taking so much pain to give signals to your sub-conscious side “even when you’re asleep”… interpret the damn signal & give the brain some credit/reward for all the hard work it did last night!!!

Look Who is Standing By...

You taught me how to walk...
but, i may have learned how to run...
you gave me a beautiful life...
though, i may have given it the twists & turns...
yet, you have always stood by me...
but, i was the one who never noticed...

i may have been ungrateful before...

i may have behaved thanklessly...

i may have been ruthful in what i said...

i may have been reckless in what i did...

but you still always loved me...

inspite of my every behavior...

but then i met a boy...

who said that he loved me...

you said he is not right...

but i still believed him anyway...

i may have been here 2 decades...

but you have been through 5...

if you say something...

it always has its' good reasons!!!

today i accept that you were right...

how could he have loved me???

when he did not even love himself...

how could he have loved me???

when he did not even know what love meant!!!

i may have been thankless yesterday...

but today im sorry & thankful...

that you saved me from a creep...

who is just a family "black sheep"!!!

i should have never have had trusted him...

when he himself never trusted himself...

i should have had never thought of his good/bad...

when all he fears is, he will end up like his dad!!!

how can a guy do good for me...

when he cannot even think for himself...

how can he ever run his family without stumbling...

when he thinks im like his strong mum & he like his dad, fumbling...

still, i wonder why he always wants to keep things on the back burner...

when he feared, in few years, like his mum, i will be the sole bread earner!!!

he did not value me for the love i gave him...

he just said, he's scared, he will end up like his dad!!!

he did not value the trust i put in him...

but, because i did, he thinks im mad...

he is right when he called me potential "crazy"...

i must have been crazy to be crazy about him!!!

& today, i stand tall... even at 5'2"...

because im backed by a dad... who fights all odds...

because i have a mom who loves me & cries in my pain!!!

& today, even at 5'11"... he is nothing...

because he is backed by someone he doesn't respect...

because he is loved by someone, who he, "pities"!!!

The Run!!!

i run... i will always run...

i dont run to beat u...

i run... cuz i need to!!!

im not running away...

im just  running along the way!!!

you ran with me... briefly...

for some time...

u promised you'd run along...

till the end of time...

but u got tired too soon...

but, its still not my time!!!

you took your stop...

i understand you had to...

i slowed down a little...

so you can catch along...

but u just gave up...

but, i hapta go on!!!

i missed out a lot...

while i slowed down for u...

i missed out a lot...

cuz i ran for me & u...

cuz i forgot, u were just tagging along...

i forgot, i was running for me, not for u!