Dear John . . .

Dear John, I have missed you for quite some time now… you have been gone for quite a while now… I know I love you, but I seem to have forgotten your face… I know you have a sweet voice… but its real memory has erased… I remember how your touch gave me goose bumps… I know I miss it, but I don’t remember how it really felt… Dear John, I think I remember how you loved me… guess that’s what holds me back from letting go… Dear John, I feel that you still want me… but I guess its nothing but a hope…

Its been 6 years, 9 months & 17 days since we last met… its obvious I forgot your face… its been 6 years, 9 months & 12 days since we last spoke… its obvious I forgot your voice as well… Its been 5 years, 8 months & 10 days since I’ve been wanting to give up… but you always said “When the world says, ‘give up’… hope whispers, ‘try it one more time’.” But dear John, it feels like I’ve battled enough… it actually is time to give up… because dear John, no matter how much you want… I can’t wait for you anymore…

I know I said, I’ll love you forever… im sorry, I guess I lied… I know I said, I’ll wait forever… but guess who waits for none… time & tide… but dear John, do believe me when I say, I tried… yet, my dear, I am just as human as I look… if I were a mahatama, I would have made this earth a better place… but I am just a regular girl… all I want is a better place & life for myself… Dear John, I have loved you… but you’ve been gone way too long & I have emptiness inside… Dear John… I cant wait for you any longer… I believe, its now time to say goodbye!!!

P.S. I guess, somewhere, I still love you!