Hyperthyroidism!

In healthy people, thyroid makes just the right amount of two harmones... T3 & T4... these are responsible for our metabolism... hence affect how we burn our calories... & hence how we weigh!!!

now... most of my frenz know just how super conscious i was of my weight... every 100 grams i lost was an achievement for me! i would jubilate & tell all my frenz abt the weight that i lost, untill i became what i consider normal... now i feel normal... look normal too... but since the past few months... infact 7 months... i was on a more than average diet... my frenz know i eat more than an average girl of my size...i am on zero exercise... yet my weight was on a decline! so much so... that my mum who was after my life to lose weight when i was 64... was under immense tension that i may be suffering from hyperthyroidism!

after a lotta coaxing... i decided to google it... & figured... i had almost all the "so called" common symptoms & signs of the disease... i have witnessed extreme trembling, shaking, loosing control & even falling off when standing up immediately... i have extreme heat intolerance... i get so freaky tired, but have trouble sleeping... climbing to the 4th floor finishes me everyday... my cycles have gone for a toss... my heart beats so loud at times, i can hear it... i can no longer lift 10 kilos of atta which i could have a year ago... my eyesight is dipping... hair breaks like crazy (i hate my hair)... i eat so much, yet im putting off... then only sign i dint have is... nervousness... but i have become increasingly agitated & irritated for some time now!

so... this morning... we decide to get the TSH done (test to detect thyroid)... somewhere in my mind... i was ok with having thyroid... cuz its no big disease... just gotta pop a pill & u are just fine.... but the whole problem is... u gotta have the pill 1st thing in the morning & gotta stay empty stomach for about a 1/2 hour... & the 1st thing i do when i wake up is brush followed by b'fast... i will die if i have thyroid... the report came in the evening.. my folks went to collect the same... & daddy texted me "no thyroid for u!"... it sounded like he was giving me a punishment "no chocolate for u" type.. a punishment that really relieved me... :P

y did i blog about this??? well... my blog sometimes acts like my diary... & 2dy is one such day... :P i just needed to write down an important slice of my life here!

Game For Two!

The contemporary knowledge of the gaming arena says, a game for two is called a match… a match is where there are two contestants, who battle it out with each other… the match is most exciting when both the contestants are competent & are of the same level… 19-20 ka farak hona chaiye (the parties must be competent) to keep it most exciting & to lead to nail biting… but, as a player, you always hope… that you are at least 2-3 levels better than your opponent!

One scores & takes his/her point up… the other one needs to score more to beat him/her! If both are not equally competent, & one keeps winning & the other keeps losing, you lose the interest… strong competition is the one most critical factor to pep the match up … whether it be badminton, tennis or even scrabble… how do you feel if your making all the points & the other is not… its just not interesting… infact, we can rather say.. its plain boring! When the competition is fierce, you end up loathing your opponent… you are filled with intense desire to defeat him/her… you resort to all your best trick to win this game!

But then, there are many a times when people do not play with the intention of winning.. they just play for the intention of having some good fun… yet, one does end up winning & the other losing! It’s the fundamental law of gaming right??? But, they say… the only game for two… where both emerge as the winner is called… Louuuuuuu!

Love, is a funny game… it does not follow any of the rules of gaming… infact, you try your best to find an opponent (now named your “partner”) with all qualities better than you… you try & let them have their score, just to make him/her happy… all you wish to do is make life easy for him/her… you forgive their wrongs & work on yours… you give up on what you want for what he/she wants… you find happiness in his/her happiness… & you are ready to lose out on any & everything just to be with him/her! You give him/her love & you get love back in multiple folds… & the cycle continuous… it’s a funny little GAME for TWO!

Sometimes...

Sometimes, you gotta love… what is good for you!

I have heard this advice many a times… by many people… at many occasions…

it starts from simple stuff like buying that warm ordinary pullover instead of the fashionable sweatshirt… & goes on to marrying a settled guy instead of the one who will need your support during the struggle/letting go off a girl because you think you aren’t good enough for her… but I guess, you will still say… sometimes, you gotta love, what is GOOD for YOU!

& there are justifications… the warm but ordinary pullover will protect you from the winter & the settled guy will give you/her all the comforts in this world…RIGHT?

Ummmm… so there.. you may make your choice & compromise… but it will always BE a COMPROMISE… your compromise will never be your love… because… you know how love is… it just does not change loyalties for a compromise ;P stubborn arse :D

the fact is… no matter how warm the ordinary pullover makes you feel… you will always regret not being able to buy that fashionable sweat shirt… you may not be ashamed of the ordinary pullover… but you definitely will not be all happy about it!

Similarly… no matter how many comforts this settled guy provides you/her with… you will always regret letting go of who you love… because the fact stays… you/she may not be ashamed about this guy (you/she actually may be proud of his achievements)… but you/she definitely will never be happy about it… because LOVE will always be LOVE & a COMPROMISE will always be a COMPROMISE!

So go ahead & get what is good for you… as long as it is a temporary fix… you can always go ahead & buy that fashionable pullover later in life… but don’t compromise for temporary benefits & loose out on life long happiness… cuz, sometimes you GOTTA LOVE… what you REALLY LOVE!