You wake up in the morning & put on a face… but there is this something u can’t hide… it’s the void in ur heart that you just can’t erase! you feel so empty... yet your head is so heavy... you feel so heavy... even though you have lost so much weight! People say you are not the same... you put on a plastic smile & say "oh! I'm okhay!" they don't really believe you... they ask you again... but you just smile & smile & smile some more & say, "don't drive me insane!" but your eyes fill up.... & the trickling is just about to begin... so u stare at the floor & walk away... u walk as fast as you can... to reach out to the wash room... & to hide the tears, you wash ur face... you wash your face about 20 times a day... but u still cant hide those blood red eyes... you still can't hide the gravel in your voice!!!
You discuss with your close ones... the ones who saw u smile once... the ones who want to see you smile again... u cry out like a crazy mad person... & they say "are you mad or what... why you crying.. what's there to cry... its not ur loss... its human nature to desert love for life today... but, what goes around... comes around... life will eventually desert “the other” for love tomorrow & then all that will be left is emptiness!" but it doesn't lift up your spirits... cuz you dont ever want emptiness for the other... cuz you truly believed in love... you believed so much in it... that you swore by it... you preached it... when some1 came to you for advice... you always suggested to stick by... you always suggested to not give up... but now you realize your mistake... you should have let them give up... you should have given up... cuz love is not a 1 way affair... if even 1 party backs out... its over...
but then.. is it actually over??? the love??? nah... im sorry to say... what's over is the illusion that it was love! cuz love never gets over... love never backs out... love makes you strong... love just cannot be weak... true love would die for you... true love will withstand any pressure... true love will not give up no matter who stands against you! So if your love gave up on you... it surely wasn't love... it was just a facade... it was just an illusion... so you try & gather what ever little is left of you... especially because you see your once love happy & enjoying his LIFE... you start all over again... but then comes a time... when you have time... & remember the old times… & tears roll down as memories tear you apart… & then… you try & make a new start… & then you fall apart… but you get up again… for another start… but it seems you have lost your strength… & you just fall apart!
You discuss with your close ones... the ones who saw u smile once... the ones who want to see you smile again... u cry out like a crazy mad person... & they say "are you mad or what... why you crying.. what's there to cry... its not ur loss... its human nature to desert love for life today... but, what goes around... comes around... life will eventually desert “the other” for love tomorrow & then all that will be left is emptiness!" but it doesn't lift up your spirits... cuz you dont ever want emptiness for the other... cuz you truly believed in love... you believed so much in it... that you swore by it... you preached it... when some1 came to you for advice... you always suggested to stick by... you always suggested to not give up... but now you realize your mistake... you should have let them give up... you should have given up... cuz love is not a 1 way affair... if even 1 party backs out... its over...
but then.. is it actually over??? the love??? nah... im sorry to say... what's over is the illusion that it was love! cuz love never gets over... love never backs out... love makes you strong... love just cannot be weak... true love would die for you... true love will withstand any pressure... true love will not give up no matter who stands against you! So if your love gave up on you... it surely wasn't love... it was just a facade... it was just an illusion... so you try & gather what ever little is left of you... especially because you see your once love happy & enjoying his LIFE... you start all over again... but then comes a time... when you have time... & remember the old times… & tears roll down as memories tear you apart… & then… you try & make a new start… & then you fall apart… but you get up again… for another start… but it seems you have lost your strength… & you just fall apart!
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