For Some Reason...

I have never been a bright student... unless you consider the non competitive up till 4th standard as a benchmark for brightness... because tab tak, i was good... then, started the decline... everyone around me put up way too many hopes on me.. i will do this.. i will do that... docter banegi ladki... no, i dont wanna be a doctor... theek hai,, engineer ban ja... ummm... doctor bhi nai banegi, engineer bhi nai, toh kya jhaadu pochay waali banegi... WTF... aren't there any other professions apart from these three??? apparently, not! look at what you have done to yourself... you were the brightest in the family... now everyone else is ahead of you...

toh theek hai.. ban gai engineer... & because i was scared of Redos... i cleared 'em all in one go... toh the status was high again... wow... i have never heard of an engineer who has not given a repeat paper... please for Godz sake, i have heard of many... i was not in IIT... but for some reason, i knew i was not the black sheep... i knew i could get a decent package.. a decent job... & i did... Infosys, i believe is decent...

now, i am in Amity... a lotta people ask me why Amity post Infy... & i know why... i know i am not IIM material... even i was... i don't wanna be there... cuz i wanna jez chill... enoy life ya... n then... everyone tells me... you must be stupid to join Amity... n i think in my heart... & i believe in the same... that for some reason.. my decision ain't wrong... & one day... when i will be where i want to be... you will say... for some reason.. i din't believe she was right.... but for some reason... she turned up to be absolutely right!

CUZ i believe... for some reason... that i am RIGHT... :)

Hope Vs. Faith!

today, tomorrow & everyday... u'll come across so many people... some would be your family.... some your frenz... some acquaintances.... some "you recognize their face"... & some sheer strangers...

you see her smiling... you're jealous of her life...you see her smiling... you think her life is good... you wonder how to make your life just like hers... you wish you could smile just like her.... cuz you see her smiling.... but you're unaware of her pain... you sit next to her... & get talking about your life...

you realize that your's is so much better.... but you don't understand the reason why shez smiling... you have a family to support u... you have a life... but you're scared deep inside about the horrors of tomorrow... but you see her smiling... right through her sorrow.... you ask her... how amidst such trouble... can you smile?

she smiles at you... & tells you.... i dont have family support... i have a fucked up life.... but im not giving up... m putting up this fight... i dont believe in superstition.... i dont believe in others.... but i follow logic... & i have faith... in myself... i know for a fact... that even if the world turns its back on me... i still will have my faith... no matter how many times life brings me down... i will resurrect from ashes... if i keep my faith...


she gave you a lesson.... she taught you how... to stand tall when everything around you falls... she said that half the battle is won if you can conquer your brain... & that God will edit your future.... if only you work towards your faith.... she said that faith builds positive energies around you... never has a man got to the top if he believed others.... to get anywhere in life... you gotta have belief in yourself!!!

Love... Trust... & Blaaaah!!!

its a widely known fact... that women emote better than men... & that even though they get insecure pretty fast... they are the ones who trust others the most...

but i know a girl... who just cant seem to trust nobody... she can never take anyones' words... she wants proof for every darn thing under this Sun...

yes... that girl is me... i cant even trust the closest of my family... the people i love the most... the only ones that i have witnessed standing by me when the whole freaking world was laughing at me... yet... i don't trust that they will stand by me the next time... i don't trust that they know what is the best for me... i don't trust that their decision is the right one... they have never hurt me... yet i check their intentions....

i wonder what i will do ahead in my life... if i really cant trust anybody... :(

but i guess... i have been hurt way too many times by multiple people outside of my family... that makes it hard for me to trust just about anybody! :(

Stink-o-mania!!!

We women are so conscious... conscious of just about everything...

what clothes we wear...
what jewelery we adorn...
what heels we walk on...

what looks we give...
what looks we get...
what looks we want...

we put in so much effort...
to look smashing hot...

everything we do...
is so thought off...
everything we show...
is so manipulated!!!

every month we visit the beauty salon...
in for some serious deforestation...
from the eyebrows & upper lip...
to oh... it hurts so bad... bikini wax...

every morning we wake up...

& fix our worn looks...

brush the darn baffled hair...

clean up bright & nice...

& wear our brand new face...

we look at the mirror...

& feel so dead darn good...

we blow ourself a kiss!!!

muaaaah!!!!

we reach our school/college/office...

women eye us with envy...

men drool over us...

but some women wonder why...

no guy comes nearby...

no one asks out for coffee...

leave alone a dinner date...

they just stare from far...

paas kyu nai ata yaar???

dear drop dead good looking woman...

i will tell you why...

because when you put in so much effort...

you forgot the one aspect...

that drives them wild...

your scent!!!

i don't understand...

how some women who put in all the effort...

can be ignorant enough to forget this aspect...

& look so good but stink so bad...

that all i feel for them is... SORRY!!!

I Don't Understand This Rush!!!

Everything we do is done out of the following reasons:

1. It has to be done... whether you like it or not!!!

2. its boring... but it is good for you!!!

3. it gives you a rush!!!

i understand the first one.. you don't have a choice there...

we came to amity... took a specialized MBA in marketing & Sales... now we have to do subjects like Rural Marketing.... which should technically have been an elective... after all how many of us will ever EVER in our lives work up strategies to sell to the rural markets???

i understand the second one as well... you have a choice... & you gotta take the right one...

through the semester... you crib about the subjects... you hate the teachers... you hate the subjects... but you just dont leave any slide unturned... you cant bear the book... so you mug up the whole damn slide... word by word.... vomit it out right up in the paper... after all you will get marks for the same.. right???

but i dont understand the third one... it may or may not be good for you... but it gives you this darn rush...

that's the reason why... we all know drugs are bad... but most go ahead & do the same!!

the very same reason is the reason why many get into a relationship... the rush you get while getting into one!!

its also the reason behind why you check yourself out in the mirror... you look good... it gives you a rush when flashes of what all your looks can bring to you come right up in front of your eyes!!!

im weird enough to get this rush when i can understand a freggin' subject that drives everyone else crazy... makes me feel super intelligent (i guess)!!!

but today i realized that i get the greatest rush from shopping... im a food-a-holic... i want food in every little interval... most of my classmates know me as the girl who eats up her lunch right under the teacherz nose... but today... i was out for so many hours... without food... my feet hurt... but i kept going... it was like this rush i had... to buy... i had to reach the climax by finishing off everything on my list... i was tired & exhausted but it seemed that the rush i was getting outta shopping was so high that taking a break for food seemed unnecessary... i came home & literally lie dead on my bed... but seriously... i just dont understand this rush... it feels so good... even though my body hurts so bad!!! :P :D