The Vicious Circle. . .

We make the rules & then we break them... we mend our hearts & promise ourselves a new start... but for some reason; we always end up wanting to make the same mistakes all over again... we are a prodigy of our own imagination... yet, we are bound by the shackles of the same.. we are our heroes & then we are our own villains!

there is something about the dark that is comforting... this weird feeling of not knowing.. of wanting to know what lurks behind... there is something about the curtains to rise... this want of making a discovery... what is this that is damn exciting about chaos... about confusion... the fear & the unknown... i cant put my finger to it... cuz everywhere i place my finger... a new discovery starts! there is this calmness in panic... the SUPREMACY calmness... when everything is in a state of commotion... yet you are INCHARGE!!! you are the director/producer/possibly even the actor of your own panic-striken drama!!!

so why do we make them rules? when there is something about a challenge? the challenge that makes us
want to crap those rules! why do we cry & crib about the drama... the mess that we ourselves created???
#1. We make them rules. . .
#2. We get our hearts broken. . .
#3. We break those rules. . .
#4. We try & learn. . .
#5. We repeat our mistakes. . .
#6. We make them rules. . .
maybe we like to be in this state of commotion... maybe we like to be always at war... to win a war... you have to become the war.. but we are our own greatest enemy... so we gear up in our armor once again & fight the two sides of the war "once again"! it IS a vicious circle-cycle!