Resolution - Check !

Its that time of the year... for the check again... so here goes... the year of resolutions yet again.. some done... some ummm... ummmm... lets see...

1. BECOME INDEPENDENT; u have lived on ur father’s income a long time… time to get independent & possibly repay! (yeah baby... sooooo damn done... i am so freaky proud of this one!!! :D)

2. SAVE; when u make money… u must learn to save… u gotta get rid of ur education loan asap! (repaying my loan on MY OWN... sucha nice feeling to be able to take care of your own expenses 2:0)

3. SAY NO WHEN NEEDED; you will be working soon… u better know when to say no… else u will end up committing much more than u can deliver! (o hell yea... said no... & said it loud & clear... & thankful that i did not decide to go with the flow then... \m/ 3:0)

4. WATCH NEWS; ok… u don’t like aaj tak & zee news… u always have BBC & CNBC… & u have 2 televisions for God’s sake! (i obviously knew this was gonna be sucha a fail... buhuuu 3:1)

5. READ; daily dose of newspaper & a monthly dose of magazine & novels! (did read... still try to... somewhat done... 4:1)

6. BE DIPLOMATIC; agar ghee seedhi ungli se na niklay… toh ungli tedi karo… u gotta learn to work around things to get what u really want! (am i diplomatic or what... in even making my resolutions... can never go wrong with this one ;P 5:1)

7. AVOID FIGHTS; if it will turn into a fight… walk away from the topic... but if ur not allowed to walk away… ensure u make ur point clear enough to avoid the topic popping up again! (been there... done that... a 100%... 6:1)

8. DON’T FORGIVE; its really no use forgiving… u end up being taken for granted + ur not the forgive & forget type in any case… forgiveness is the key to YOUR unhappiness! (though i pretty much succeeded at it... i think i really wanna fail at it now... im gonna forgive u... cuz im gonna find another u ;P filhaal k liye... 7:1)

9. HONE YOUR CULLINERY SKILLS; u love eating… make something urself… whaz the use of watching m’chef if u never cook anything??? Cook at least once a month! (i did cook 12 times in this year; i believe... for whatever reason... i did... 8:1)

10. EAT EVERYTHING; ur fussy... thaz OK… but try everything… will help u develop taste! (started with drinking milk & figured out that i am lactose intolerant... but did start eating a few things i would never have had dreamed of eating last year, so 9:1)

11. SHOO AWAY HAIR & SKIN WOES; water is ur solution… its gotten much better since u got water into ur system… drink lozza water maaaaaaaaaaaaan! (o yea... im sucha water baby now... 10:1)

12. LIVE FOR SELF… u have lived the way others’ wanted, a long time… ur job must b ur turning point! (been up & down both... living for others is nice too... cuz you know they love you... but i did do a lotta things i wanted to do... 11:1)

& most importantly….

13. FIND TIME FOR SELF; do ur daily dose of su-do-ku, play ur freggin’ scrabble, blog when u feel like… ensure u do something u like EVERYDAY! (did i wanna do this... yea... did i do it... hell yea... what am i... A W E S O M E 12:1)

12 done outta 13... like Barney would say... LEGEN... wait for it... DARY!!!

Heights of Love… Raising the Curtains!!

Continued from http://geets13.blogspot.com/2011/10/heights-of-love-prelude.html

Fate is always working its magic… somehow… it is always working in its mysterious ways to establish that connection… & when you feel it… its fireworks!!! The magic can bring the most incompatible together… no wonder it is called “fire on ice”…

As Adam stared into her bright blue eyes… he found the answers to all his questions… he had been wondering why he cant stop but think about her… Adam the serious kinds, always detested the cute & the talkative… yet thaz exactly what attracted him to Grata… he always loved his dark gothic bearded & curly hair look… yet he shaved it off just because it probably scared her… he always made fun of women below 5’7”, but all he wanted to do is wrap this 5’2” in his arms… he knew his answers… he could see it in her eyes… he loved her innocence!!

Grata still confused… still jumbled… flashes of life passing by her eyes… she had always been the man in her relationships… she had always longed to feel protected than to be the protector… & here was Adam… just THAT guy... looking into her eyes… showing her that life… because every once in a while, amid all the randomness, laughers, cries, happiness, sadness & every other thing that constitutes it… something unexpected happens which pushes us far & beyond… & this was the moment to seize… she saw in his eyes… that he would love her & protect her & provide for her… all his life… to top it, she always dug tall men… at least 5’10” & Adam was taller, stronger & fitter… yet… it seemed she was in a state of face freeze… word freeze...

As the cars honked from behind… she blinked her eyes… wondering why… she was outta words… a woman of a thousand words without one at this point in time… he’s hot alright… there’s this vibe between us… alright… but she did see him fighting 2 guys & almost killing them right before bumping into her… she thought to herself “what if he is a goon… a criminal… he is a giant in comparison to me… what if he gets angry at me someday… if he did slap me… I would actually die”… while in her thoughts, she closed the car door & without a word and drove away…

TO BE CONTINUED. . . http://www.geets13.blogspot.in/2012/09/heights-of-love-question.html

Lovely Sadly… Hardly Lovely!!!

I look at myself… I know I am a lovely person… yet I decide to “just” feel bad about the guy trying to pull up his bike post an accidental slip on the road… I know it is what it is… at this point in time… at this moment… I know no matter what I’d think… I would still be there… cuz given a chance I still would repeat the same… cuz I can never be sure if that guy is a lovely person or not… cuz I can never be sure if he actually needs my help or is it just a plan to loot me/somebody/anybody…

I know I am lovely person because I know children are like mirrors… & even though I see them from a distance… they in their school bus & me in my car… I still see them poking their heads outta their windows just to wave & smile so bright at me… happened not once… not twice… but on a daily basis… yet I decide not to give a lift to the student who seems to be getting late for college… cuz I can never be sure if he is actually getting late or is it just a plan to loot me/somebody/anybody…

I know I am a lovely person cuz I always help the elderly carry their bags… help them across the streets… have even helped them hire an auto… suggested to knock off the lines & bought their movie tickets along with mine… even awwwwwwed at them when seeing them holding hands in the park & walked & talked with them & inspired them to walk brisk to stay fit… yet I’ve never given money to an old couple with their children who got mugged & don’t have money to take a bus to their place, nor have I ever let them into my car… cuz I can never be sure if they really were mugged or is it means of easy money or is it just a plan to loot me/somebody/anybody…

I look at myself… I know I am a lovely person… I look at you… I think you are a lovely person… but I can actually never be sure… so please don’t mind if I "also consider" you being lovely, as just a plan to loot me/somebody/anybody!!!

Dear John . . .

Dear John, I have missed you for quite some time now… you have been gone for quite a while now… I know I love you, but I seem to have forgotten your face… I know you have a sweet voice… but its real memory has erased… I remember how your touch gave me goose bumps… I know I miss it, but I don’t remember how it really felt… Dear John, I think I remember how you loved me… guess that’s what holds me back from letting go… Dear John, I feel that you still want me… but I guess its nothing but a hope…

Its been 6 years, 9 months & 17 days since we last met… its obvious I forgot your face… its been 6 years, 9 months & 12 days since we last spoke… its obvious I forgot your voice as well… Its been 5 years, 8 months & 10 days since I’ve been wanting to give up… but you always said “When the world says, ‘give up’… hope whispers, ‘try it one more time’.” But dear John, it feels like I’ve battled enough… it actually is time to give up… because dear John, no matter how much you want… I can’t wait for you anymore…

I know I said, I’ll love you forever… im sorry, I guess I lied… I know I said, I’ll wait forever… but guess who waits for none… time & tide… but dear John, do believe me when I say, I tried… yet, my dear, I am just as human as I look… if I were a mahatama, I would have made this earth a better place… but I am just a regular girl… all I want is a better place & life for myself… Dear John, I have loved you… but you’ve been gone way too long & I have emptiness inside… Dear John… I cant wait for you any longer… I believe, its now time to say goodbye!!!

P.S. I guess, somewhere, I still love you!

Dreams Uninterrupted. . .

its fascinating... how your mind works... its fascinating... how it gives you the signs... its fascinating... how it lets you discover...

i thought for quite some time that i lost all the weight, became seriously ill & underweight, looked like a corpse & was under extreme amount of stress... for just 1 reason... the break up... i swore by it... until i realized... i wasn't in all that much love in the 1st place... all that i liked about him was that he was good looking... but he dint care... & i knew that from day 1... i always knew where it was heading & though i've cried a million rivers over it... frankly, im glad its over...

its funny... how i then dreamed a lot about my mother... about being in pain... even playing acoustic guitar...  technically, seeing your mom in your dreams denotes the fact that in your waking life, you have preoccupied thoughts in your mind that need sorting out... to dream of being in pain represents that you're being too hard on yourself about something that was not in your control... playing an acoustic guitar... ummmm... ill just say that it is fantasy based... though all of these could fit in with the break up stand... yet... there is this vivid dream i saw... that made me realize that my condition is not so because of the break up...

i saw a dream where i was standing against a huge wall with a olympic swimming pool sized puddle of mud in front of me fenced by 2 feet tall * 1/2 feet thick concrete walls on 2 sides...  & thorn wire mesh which needed to be jumped across to get to the safer land... i decide to step into the puddle instead of walking on the side concrete & realize that the puddle has a crocodile in it... & goodness gracious me... i still dont decide to walk on the fence.. i actually try & fight the croc... for my life... i try & kill it... & even though im not able to kill it, i successfully am able to evade its attacks by sitting on top of it... when i reach for the wire mesh... i see a monkey at the top, who tries to help me to get to the other side... & for some reason, i avoid the monkey & climb the wire mesh... jump on to the safer side & look behind at the croc with a sense of accomplishment... this dream represented exactly what was happening in my life then!!!

now... im not an expert on dreams... but i could trace this one to my real life stage by stage... step by step... & that's when i realized... all the stress & falling sick was because of this... this thing that was answered by this croc monkey dream... apparently... during my breakup time... i was also going through a bad career phase... i had consciously taken my career down the drain... i realized that within 10 days of the job... i wanted it so bad... but it was a bad bad career move... the people there showed me how miser they were even before i joined... the woman who took my interview... made me pay for the refreshments, but took the bill from me on purpose to get a reimbursement from the office... the boss was always in for a free treat... but whenever we went dutch, he took a walk.. anyway... so the conscious wrong career choice was stepping into the muddle... the croc represents a powerful person who will kill you... career wise... somebody powerful in the organization who always has his way & does not let you grow... but i being a stubborn ass fought the croc & dint give in... but even though i was fighting, he still was powerful... which lead to the stress... the monkey helping represents a cunning friend who helps for a purpose... & i did have offers from friends to switch... but declining help meant exactly what i did... i did not take anyone's favor...

today... im in a much better position... not stressed... smiling like before... the face dusn look pale anymore... thankfully, im not underweight either anymore --> that is such a relief to my mom!!! Dreams really help you interpret your life... dont ignore them... dont interrupt them... understand them... work on them... FIX YOUR LIFE!!!

Boys Vs Girls. . .

its so funny how certain things are taken for granted...

stupidly driven car --> must be a lady driver

pretty girl --> must be dumb

dumb act by a boy --> must be a sardar

& nobody raises their voice against it... it is so accepted.. universally...

<-- this caught my eye... im sure, its caught your eye too... i mean it is all over facebook... & im sure... you've all had a good laugh too... & i even am sure, many of you, googled it too.... why are women so ???

but did any of you try this... why are boys so GROSS! -->
i did... & of course, as expected... had my share of laugh too :D

The Waves. . .

Every time I write fiction... the women have had varied characteristics... but there has been 1 similarity amongst all the women I have mentioned... their lovely dark curly/wavy hair... every time a make a woman's sketch... she inevitably always has curly hair... you may wonder why... but I know why... its because even though I crib & complain most about the weight & hair woes... i still love to eat... & i still love the length on my hair!!!

Yes, i am not the drop dead gorgeous kind of women that men love & women envy... but i do have my way around men & i do have 1 thing that a lot of women envy... Being a southie, i am blessed with BEAUTIFUL dark locks... yes, they are unmanageable at times... but i know women who think that i go to salons to get my hair fixed... curly hair is the most prone to roughness... breakage... dryness... frizziness... split ends... the curlier it is... the more unmanageable it can be!!!

My Hair - when i play it into curls!!

Some things that work wonders for us... the curly types include...

* OLIVE OIL... I've heard about it... but i still am a coconut oil person... Southie you see... the point is... oiling your hair can help you get rid of roughness...

* The Wide toothed comb... yes our hair gets into a fight with combs... so why hurt them with the narrow combs... use wide toothed combs or plain & simple fingers... i even twist & turn & play my hair into curls when wet to manage the curls....

My Hair - When i open it post pleating!

* Shampoo twice a week... not more... not less... ive tried a plethora of Shampoos... some bring temporary relief.... but nothing permanent... the shampoo that suited me the most --> Dove Dry Care...

* Leave ons... i used to use Livon... it helps in managing the hair a bit... but leave it & the hair becomes even worse... believe it or not... i have researched like crazy & tried a million things to manage the curly while avoiding the frizz.... the cheapest worked the best for me... body lotion & i really mean body lotion... helps set your hair without damaging the heck outta it!!!

* Trimming.... i love my length... & hence i get a trim just 2X a year... but that is not good enough for curly hair... so i hit a pair of scissors & get rid of the split ends on a bright sunny day!!!

* Tie it up... i keep my hair open in the day... but the hair is the safest when tied up... so make sure you keep your hair tied up as much as you can to avoid the damage... but curly/wavy hair takes the shape in which it is tied up, so be careful about that... i pleat it up mostly, so that if i have to step out suddenly, i can simply open it & i am good to go with my lovely waves in place!!!

An Apple a Day... Keeps the Berry at Bay!!!

Have you ever regretted words that flew outta your mouth? i dont mean the bad words... everyone regrets those... i mean, the big promises that are soooooo outta reach, but you still make those in anticipation of good times??? stuff like... when you promise your baby sister that you will throw her birthday party... & because you are a woman of your words... you throw that party & end up so broke that you cant throw a birthday party for yourself the following month... well... i could not celebrate my birthday... but thankfully, at least my sister had a celebration the way she wanted!!! regret it for self... not the whole picture!!!

so... i bought a blackberry in august this year... & my sister accompanied me when i bought the same.... shortly after i got my BB, she started saying that all her frenz are askin her to switch 2 a bb too... (well, ive changed 13 phones in the last 9 years... 9 of these were bought for valid reasons such as losing a phone or it died for whatever reason... the other 4 were because I JUST WANTED THEM!!! Nokia 7610 & 5800 express music were 2 of those... blackberry was the 3rd & 4th is...... ... ...) & i dunno what made me say it, but i remember saying it so clearly... when i get my iPhone, i will gift you this blackberry!!! yep the 4th 1 is an iPhone!!! the BB was with me for just 3 months - 3 days!!!

I know a lot of people who own a BB would go like... why why why? how can you LEAVE a BB??? how can you leave BBM?? well... but thats all that it has to it... it IS a corporate phone... the best of the breed in terms of emails & calender sync... what push it has... so robust... you can literally have a bus run over it without losing a key... but damn man.. does it hang.... & the forever take out the battery & place it back... pheew!!! + BBM... most of my frenz who are on BBM are ALSO on whatsapp... so nothing lost there... can easily stay in touch... dammit even the messages are free man... big deal with the BBM... in fact, im kinna thankful, i dont needta see the same forwards coming from the entire list & the "broadcast this or 10 years of bad sex" messages... Seriously... Blackberry vs iPhone???

after the Nokia 5800, i had become a touch person.. the hard key pads are not for me anymore... i love the iPhone.. yes, you BB lovers, i LOVE THE iPHONE BETTER ANYDAY... yes, it is fragile, but, all that BB is that iPhone is not, is robust... i know you would say you cant customize ringtones, alarms etc... wake up... Apple store... apps to fix those... but, frankly, i dont mind the Marimba... + iPhone is a media consumer's dream... movies... music at ease.. the sexy bump to exchange... motion gaming... i mean, bow down to gaming engineering here man... it has the BEST TOUCH...  the capacitive touch & motion sensing... AWESOME... i mean, finger zoom in & pinch zoom out... CRAZYYYYY... what storage... CPU... RAM... the sexiest GUI.. its super hip & trendy TOO (the show off factor)... bye bye BBM, i dont miss you... Whatsapp it is... & not to forget the best thing... PC like web browsing... \m/

Not only do i not like iPhone better because of its looks, feel & utility... i actually also save Rs. 300 on a monthly basis... cuz i dont need the 399 BB plan anymore... all that i need is a Rs. 98 Internet plan... all said & done, BB is great... but it is so corporate... iPhone is better... it so is ME!!!

Is Death the Real Answer???

The Crime Scene…

As he lay there in blood, his eyes began to dwindle & he went down the memory lane… Death is peaceful, in spite of the physical pain… he overheard a man “one down” & another man approaching, screaming “here… here” but he din’t wanna live again… what more did life have to offer… except some more pain!

Past…

Jerry had been married to Rene for 12 years… they married young… they were stupid… but till date, they were so in love! They had promised each other till death do us apart & death got better off with them, it seemed… He opened his eyes & saw her in a pool of blood next to him, as the medics removed the knife out of his body & covered his wounds to take him away… he reached out to her hand & held it so tight one last time before the medics actually pulled him away!

The Investigation…

There were no signs of robbery… no signs of breaking in or force used… seems like the attacker knew the victims well enough… it was not before 4 days in the hospital that he showed signs of recovery… the police questioned him, but he could not remember a thing… how was his wife murdered so brutally… why was he stabbed in the chest… who were they with… he did not remember anything from before 8 hours of his wife’s murder… he did not even remember that he was stabbed & that he opened his eyes & held his wife’s hand before being brought to the hospital… the reports showed signs of date rape in both his & his wife’s body!

The questions…

he could not remember anything … where was i??? what was I doing??? he asked the police… the medics… everyone… it seemed he was going crazy… he said he had vivid dreams that he killed his wife... he kept saying all the time… I killed my wife… I killed my wife… so much so, that he was sent to rehab… but no use… I killed my wife… I killed my wife… it had been 2 months & there were no leads on the case… by then Jerry had tried to kill himself 7 times… & it seemed he genuinely believed he killed his wife… until he was successful to kill himself in the 8th time “to be united with his wife in heaven or hell!!!”

The tipping point…

A night before the kill… Jerry & Rene were out with their old time college buddies… they boozed like they were in college & that’s where they got the roofies in their bodies from too… Allen who had loved Rene from college days was trying to get fresh with her & Jerry could not take the same… He knew Rene loved him but he still could not control his anger & had an unreasonable fight with her on the way back… Rene even apologized to calm him down but that infuriated him even more… he thought that she is apologizing because she was wrong & in a rage of fury he stabbed her over & over & killed his beautiful wife… & when he realized what he had done.. he did not want to live anymore… so he stabbed himself as well… for redemption… no wonder Death was peaceful… no wonder death was more peaceful than living anymore!

The Little Less Known About the Apple Man . .

I think one of the best things that Steve Jobs gave us is.... I know, most of you will say an iPhone or an iPod or an iPad... but i would say... the best thing he gave us was Pixar animation studios... i mean... he put faith in computer animation films when even Walt Disney (the gurus of animation) discarded them... 

But now, Pixar is a subsidiary of the Walt Disney.. yet most people are unaware of the same… in fact, most people do even know that Steve Jobs is its co-founder... most people know pixar as an independent studio making some of the best animation movies… all the films produced by Pixar are amongst the 50 highest grossing animated movies of all time… so if attachment with Walt Disney & Steve Jobs is not the reason... then what makes Pixar so successful?

Pixar works because of three main reasons:

a)      Lots of Creativity -- allows each one of its employees to showcase their talents!

b)      Acceptance of newer technologies -- at pixar, they believe that technology only helps you enhance your creative best... they are not          afraid of it, they embrace it!

c)      The open culture -- anyone & everyone is allowed to voice their opinions!

The above mentioned 3 reasons allow Pixar to motivate employees from within to push them selves to the limit while enjoying the same. It allows its employees to work harder each time while adding their own personal element to their movies; & like the saying goes… “a happy employee makes a happy customer!” I believe Pixar is loved because it makes what it loves! Its loved for its USP… it appeals to the spark in you! it appeals to the spark in me at least... i mean i have never ever seen any of rom-coms (girl's favorite type of movies) or action (die hard can come pretty close in competition though) as the no. of times i have seen Ratatouille!!!

Go GoOgle!!!

Google has redefined the term “surfing”… nobody today says that they are surfing the Internet, they say, if you need any information “google it”. There are other search engines in the market… yahoo… bing.. ask.com… but for a common man… google is "the only one" who (personified) has all the answers… what makes Google so successful?

Google is loved by customers & advertisers alike… the customers love it for the ease of its use (plus its free)… the advertisers love it as it helps influence the customers even though they (the customers) don’t realize its “selling at the advertiser’s end!” hence… google works because of its simplicity & its user friendliness!

Another reason why google works is because they never stop, they love innovations… they just keep expanding & enriching their knowledge base for the advertisers & customers alike… they keep adding more & more new stuff to their portfolio… they are just everywhere… from gmail to gtok to googlemaps to even google chrome to google trasalate… they have an answer to everything.. literally!

Also… as google follows the people first policy in their organization, their employees return the favor back by working hard… there is pressure on everyone, but everyone there is committed to deliver! i would say that i literally love google... not just the search engine... but also the company... & there could have been no better word for google... it intrinsically states go-ogle... & that's what one can do... ogle at google!

Heights of Love - Prelude

Adam, a well built ANGRY man, at 6’1”, 80 kilos, bumped into the BUBBLY petite Grata, 5’2”, 52 kilos… he was someone that everyone was scared of… if he would hit someone, consider them dead… she thought she saw a giant & fainted… as he carried her in his arms towards his car to take her to the hospital, he thought in his head, she is almost weightless… so tiny & miniature… for some reason he smelled her dark wavy hair… the sun shone on her face & he noticed how her kajal went from side to side & how her lips were puckered up just like the dolls… he could wrap her tiny little waist in the openings of his hands… he had always detested short people… but he just couldn’t help but notice how pretty she was…

When she regained consciousness, he asked her ‘her name’ & she fainted again… the doctor’s said, she probably got frightened by you… fluttered & frustrated he hit home & ran his 0 no. shaver on his head (in irritation) along with his beard… the next morning he returned again to see her… from a distance… she was chattering away with the doctors & other patients.. she had the cutest smile & prettiest eyes… he smiled to self.. had he fallen in love??? can a man his size ever fall in love with a girl that size? But more importantly, if she was so scared of him, how could he ever pursue her? Is this how it was supposed to be… his 1^st love… with someone so incompatible that he cannot even take it forward 1 step?

 

He stalked her a while… until he knew everything she did… when she did & where she did… he hated the traffic… but to time his car next to hers’, he even started taking the traffic route & time… she was a rash driver… & to be able to see her while maintaining the speed, he almost had accidents everyday… she saw his car inevitably everyday… could not see the whole of him… but knew he had a cute smile… & that tiny brown mole at the top of his lips, made him so attractive… sometimes when they were stuck in traffic next to each other, they realized that they both check each other out… they sometimes exchanged glances & at other times, a smile…

She was a little crazy… people used to be frustrated when stuck in traffic… she seemed to enjoy her music & almost dance during the stoppages… & on one fine stoppage when she was literally dancing to DJ got us fallin’ in love “again”… he tapped at her window to ask why did she faint when he bumped into her the 1^st time… as she rolled down the window, he instantly kissed her lips & said I love you! She stayed in a moment of freeze to gather what just happened… before she could react, he pulled open her door & said, “I know you don’t know me enough, but I somehow know we are meant to be…”

TO BE CONTINUED. . . http://geets13.blogspot.com/2011/12/heights-of-love-raising-curtains.html

Bombastic LOVE

their love was like a fairytale... so immense & intense... he was like the perfect prince... loved her like crazy...  “stop staring at me when im sleeping” Elle said… but she loved the way he loved her... & Pete loved to watch her sleep… loved to run his fingers through her beautiful curly tresses flowing like waves… to admire her dark long eyelashes… the way her mouth looked when she was fast asleep… the way she curled up like a baby… she was an angel in her sleep!!! He was gonna miss her… today was the last time he could see her sleep… until they reunite again… could be 6 months… could be 6 weeks… the life of a sailor took him to far FAR lands… to even think of 6 months on the ship… made his heart weak!!! but they both knew, he made her smile when he was around & his thoughts would made her smile when he'd be gone!

“stop it” she said “you gotta wake up early tomorrow”… he kissed her lips & hugged her to sleep… the next morning he woke up & she was not in bed… she woke up early to pack his bags so he was all set… she even got his breakfast in bed… she looked at him gently & said with a beautiful smile “rise & shine hon!” & so he did… “my beautiful angel… so strong & full of love…” he thought when she said with tenderness in her voice “you know im gonna miss u… I LOVE YOU! If I could stop you from going I would have”... 

He pulled her to bed… kissed her neck & said “baby, you can visit me at each of my stops… im gonna mail you everyday… & im gonna call you at every opportunity!” his 1^st stop was at Thailand… she could not come to meet, but they spoke for hours each day over the phone!!! & then when he joined back the ship… they exchanged letters everyday… she was to fly down for his 3^rd stop at LA (it was 4 months since they met) & so she did… they had some good LA fun… & he kicked off again… he wrote his 1^st mail… but no reply… he wrote the 2^nd… still no reply… he bombarded her mail box… & no reply… he called her at his next stop… but number not in service… he kept trying… could not even reach her folks…

It had been over a month but no response… what had happened… was she ok… was she alive… he checked her return flight details… she never returned home… he used all his power to find out what happened to her… maybe she was fooled into carrying someone else’s luggage that had drugs in it… he checked jails on jails… but no luck… when he returned back from his sail, he met her neighbors… they told him that her folks were summoned to LA in a hustle… no one knew anything… he was sure; it’s a drug case… so he took a flight to LA to set his angel free…

No jail had any record of her… but he found out where her folks were staying somehow… as he rang the doorbell; Elle opened the door to his surprise… he hugged her so tight & asked her what happened… she pushed him away & told him about this guy she met after seeing him off that day & how he sweeped her off her feet… he was smart.. charming… educated… intelligent… witted… bought her expensive gifts… treated her well… & was a pilot… “there are times when he too has to travel… for days… but it never is 6 months at a stretch here or there… what we have is bombastic & fantastic!!!”

Pete: “but I love you!!!”

Elle: “I’ve loved you too… but now I love Hayden!”

Pete: “I wish you knew the difference between this bombastic love & our TRUE LOVE”

Elle: “sometimes love alone is not enough to survive a lifetime!”

Pete: “sometimes love is all that you got!” & he walked away!

Don’t Blame Me… It’s in My Genes!!!

I guess you can blame the Romantic movies & the love ballads… cuz they actually make every girl believe that her prince charming will one day come riding a white horse or a Ferrari (choices change with times eh?) & will ask for her hand in marriage & they shall both live happily ever after… in fact, you can even blame the bubblegum pop… I mean… we women smile when we see the stupid songs by Taylor Swift that are based on Cinderella stories such as “Love story” or even “you belong with me”… don’t blame me… im a girl.. its in my genes!!!

I mean please even Justin Bieber, who does not even pass as a guy to many, sings “saw so many pretty faces before I saw you.. you… now all I see is you… im coming for you.. im coming for you… don’t need these other pretty faces like i need you.. & when you’re mine... in this world.. there’s gonna be one less lonely girl”… I mean.. let the world say Justin is ummm… whatever… I still lohove his songs man… don’t blame me… its in my genes!!!

I mean how can you not want to fall in love when you hear… How happy is the blameless vestal's lot??? The world forgetting, by the world forgot… Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!... Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd… apparently great love stories never go untold… they keep resurrecting from time to time… from poems.. movies… sometimes even blogs (like these)… so how can you not wanna feel the true love that may have been heart-wrenching in reality but sugar coated so beautifully now… that you (atleast i) wanna feel the same!!! don’t blame me… its in my genes!!!

This still is the lovey dovey bit… but seriously can you really blame me??? even friends with benefits showed the same… they had the best deal in the world… pure sex… no emotions… showed what guys really think “what do you like about me… started with the eyes… ended with the boobs… really.. I thought there are so tiny… still.. BOOBS” was the true story of how guys look at a woman… but screw you Hollywood… you gave it a Bollywood ending… they fell in love in the end… & frankly, im stupid enough to believe it … now really… can you blame me?

like i said before...

don’t blame me… its in my genes!!!

Shu…gar Meets the Cou...gar!!!

& she makes an appearance… so loud…  every eye on her… women wonder why she is here while the men ogle at her dress that leaves little to imagination… the super low cut one piece that shows her cleavage in the front & that's so skimpily short that it makes every guy want to caress her behind… leaves every guy high & dry!!!

Jen looks at Brad & says… she is so much older to you… how can you even look at her like that… she probably is double your age… I mean… I can say… she definitely is 40… look at how loud her makeup is… it is so “to hide her age!” & Brad says “I know, but i AM a GUY” & let go of Jen’s waist to moves towards her…

In the heat of the discotheque…  the temperature was rising even higher as there were guys swirling around her… if Brad din’t reach to her 1^st, he would lose a beautiful opportunity to feel the "leh" tonight…  afterall, that’s what cougars do… wear skimpy dresses & loud makeup… head to the nearby youth hangout in search of their prey… & as soon as she lays her hands on the young thing who will give her the sugar she needs… she jumps right on to him!!!

That’s when she looked straight into Brad’s eye, looked him tip to toe & gave a thumbs up grin… so he jumped right at her… holding her by her waist as Jen watches helplessly thinking to herself, he is no different & I should just have had listened to mom when she said, “Brad is just like all other guys! He will leave you for any woman who will give it to him!”

With a tear in her eye, she turns around & walk back home while Brad tries to woo this older woman… in 20 mins, she says “you wanna have coffee… my place???”…  On the way, she tells him about herself… she sounds intellectual… but that doesn’t interest him… he says "all that matters is how beautiful you are on the inside" & means it... literally... as they reach her place… he puts on a chivalrous façade & opens the car's door… walks right behind her… but as soon as she opens the house's door, he ushers her in…  she asks him to get comfy on the couch while she makes coffee…

He thinks to himself… yea right… coffee… there’s gonna be some brewing tonight as he begins to unbutton himself… when he hears Jen’s voice from behind… “Hey Sugar… my mum’s not a cougar… all she wanted to prove was that you’re just a piece of booger!!! GET LOST NOW!!!”

Its a Home Run!!!!

Leaving your place is the most heart-wrenching thing that one can ever do… its like standing in scorching heat… heat so hard that its difficult to breathe.. heat so hard, that you cant open your eyes… heat so hard that your head hurts as if you just got hit with a 100 pound hammer!!!

Its so hard to compare the then times when your mom used to cook for you everyday & take care of you everytime you felt sick to now when you’re sick but you gotta stand up on your own & make your own food… its so hard to compare the times when you used to get sparkling clean clothes right in your hands & you needn’t wash 1 cloth on your own, to the times when you hapta wash evry cloth on your own… clothes… you even gotta clean the house.. even the washrooms on your own…

Its not just about the rights… its also about the duties… its so sad to remember how you used to go with your mum to select the size 2 & 3 clothes for the Gods in your mandir @ every janamashtami… but you don’t go anymore… its so agitating to think that this year you are not the one who is decorating the “jhuula” for “laddo gopal”… its so sad to remember how you used to help your mom arrange her kitty party, go shopping with her for the gifts, go shopping for home decors from time to time… blah blah… in short… you miss the duties… cuz in some way, they define you!!!

No wonder they say “your heart is where your home is”...

No wonder they say “home sweet home”

Perfect. . .

Ive been the eternal bubbly... anyone who knows me knows that... okhay... so.. not eternal... but its been quite some time... about 8 - 9 years at least... i cry easy... but i laugh it off... ive laughed like crazy... till my eyes started shedding tears on their own... im the type people want to see before an exam... cuz i am always so cool & composed... i am also the type some people never wanna see before exams... cuz my cool drives them crazy... makes them feel they arent prepared enough...

i have a tendency to smile... im a little confused about life... even when everyone around is sure that im under stress, i myself dont get to know about it... so much so that at my last job... yea last job... i quit already... yea i did... why... let's not deviate from the point... i was saying that at my last organization, when people asked me, "so how is the work getting to you? do you like the work???" my answer inevitably always would be "its going fine... im sailing along!" "how is the work pressure?" "what work pressure???" *zapped*

everyone wondered how can i not get baffled @ work... how is my boss so sweet to me... i was told he treats me very well... apparently he did, just like a kid... he would even use the age old trick to get me to do work... as a kid, my parents always told me, if you get 20/20, you would be rewarded with uncle chips... when my boss figured out that i have a love for food (which he found out pretty soon... it is pretty evident), he would reward me with food whenever he wanted good quality work @ speed...he even told me this once... "you know you have so much value & give such quality work, but you eat up your brownie points ummm... ummm... " i cant remember what he said next.. i think my recorder got stuck at the brownie!!!

so that's how people generally know me... as a bubbly foody... it even reflects in my nick names...  as soon as i joined perfect... i got a nick name, gravy... 2 reasons... 1. love for food 2. my email id said "gravi@officialid"... 1 part of my job involved keeping a track of what's going on in all the accounts...  so i knew the what of what & where... from the whose on what project to the whose on leave & why... in fact, in abt 3 months... i even knew most of the extensions by heart... so i was termed yellow pages... cuz i was miss know all... & then... when my boss was to move to the new deptt & had to take a few of us along, i was a little saddy saddy... & then bady adi goes like... what will we do if you go... we need you here.. after all you're the CEO... don't get me wrong... Val is the chief executive officer... what i was, was the chief entertainment officer!!!

& today as i cut the cake of my very own birthday... i fondly remember these good old bubbly memories i had @ perfect... cuz i love cakes (actually food in general)... & perfect cuts tasty tasty cakes for its employees on their birthday... it was a short, but a sweet stint... kinna like the perfect cake... dusnt taste good if its over baked or under baked... just the right amount of baked... to make it another sweet memory!!!

Chimes

Each night when I fall asleep...
its sweet sound acts like a lullaby…
my day may have been good, bad, horrible...
but the air blows through it &
its sweet symphony melts my heart…
eases my mind & soothes me…
It produces a melody every night...
that puts my mind & heart to rest in a way that is indescribable…

Before I sleep, I smile for no reason…
like you do when your in love…
I feel the very same warmth…
like you do when you are being hugged…
I love the feeling it gives me…
the sweet little butterfly hanging between the resonant hollow pillars…
I love the melody they create in tandem…
my sweet everyday lullaby!!!

What's in a Name... Without a Face

There are times when people tell you...
you are nothing but your sir name...
you must have heard it a million times...
"if we take away your sir name...
there is nothing left to you!!!"

so... get bigger than your name...
so that nobody will ever say...
"he/she is the son/daughter of ... ABC"
& if at all they say your name, they've gotta say...
"thaz XYZ, the jaan of the shyaam...
thaz XYZ, who made that amazing project on his/her own...
thaz XYZ . . . he/she IS THE BEST"

make sure your name is not dependent on another name...
make sure your name is as good as your face...
be so, that no one ever says "what's in her face, without her name"
but not even so that people say "what's in her name, without her face"
let your name be your face...
& let your face be your name!!!!

The Turmoil... The Clear & The Unclear!!!

& Mike made public to the world that Ginger ignored him yet again… (not that it was her intention… but because she genuinely dint see him)... his friends said u must go speak to her!!!

But his public announcement made her wonder what she would have done if she would have actually have had seen him!!! She gave it a long thought & realized, there would be no option but to ignore… its been approximately 2 years now since they broke up, everything has been discussed over & over & OVER… she still SEES no reason to talk… not even for the good old times!!

Its true, things have gotten better… its also true that she knows that his heart still yearns for her… that he still wants her by his side… but its also true that she trusted him not once but twice… & he broke her trust which is the most basic element to a relationship…

She wrote to him

“Dear Mike,

You are the most perfect guy that every girl ever dreams of!!!

You’ve respected my emotions, laughed at my jokes, wiped my tears, stood by me irrespective of whether I was right or wrong, loved me & cared for me even over your heath, never drooled at another woman in front of me & even behind my back! You’ve carried my bags, cleaned up my vomit, heard my shit, tolerated my anger & yet made me smile all the while… but you broke my trust, not once but twice by not believing that I will do my best to help you… you broke my trust by deciding to hide your weakness from me… I could have helped… I would have helped you… but you never gave me the opportunity… you never believed in me…

What good is my faith in you if you have no faith in me???

Reply AWAITED. . .

Once Yours, Now Gone…

Ging!”

Wag the Dog!!!

Movies are made for various reasons... for entertainment... for thought provocation... to tickle your senses... blah blah blah... there is a SPECIFIC PLOT around which MOST movies revolve... they may be based on romance, fiction, humor, sci-fi, politics, sex, thrill, danger blah blah... like i said, mostly movies are made to entertain... but sometimes they also educate...  Like the movie Hancock, which revolved around changing the public image of a reckless superhero (Will Smith), educates you about the role of spin in image building. Spin is the AWESOMEST tactic ever in the books of public relations (PR). Here are some of the must watches from the PR domain.


“Thank You For Smoking” is a great political satire that revolves around Nick Naylor, a smooth-talking tobacco lobbyist. Through the course of the movie we see Public Relations at its best as Nick successfully strives to prove the disconnection between Tobacco and cancer. Through various PR tactics, combined obviously with Nick’s smooth demeanor we see how this brilliant lobbyist successfully builds and retains a positive image for tobacco.

“Phonebooth” is an engaging 81 minute movie that has been beautifully shot WITHIN A PHONE BOOTH. In the movie, Colin Firth plays a famous publicist who has a knack for lying. Firth finds himself caught in a phonebooth with a killer on the other line. The killer tells Firth that he will snipe him down if he hangs up. Through the course of the movie we see how the killer make Firth confess to all his lies on national television while the police tries to figure out a way to save him.

“Jerry Maguire” traces the life of a famous sports agent (Tom Cruise) who after being fired starts his own agency. As the movie tracks the hardships he goes through in this business it showcases the importance of PR in the field of sports. As Jerry works as a sports agent for his only client, Tidwell, we see how he uses the media, and other PR tactics to build the image of his client.

“Peepli Live” is an Indian comic satire that explores the farmer suicides and the subsequent media response that follows them. In this movie we see how the politicians try to appease the masses through the media. We also see media in its rawest form à only looking for sensational news and in the process forgetting the true essence of responsible journalism.

“Wag the Dog” is a hilarious satire with a serious thought-provoking message about the relationship between politics and mass- market entertainment. In this movie a sitting president is caught in a sex scandal just 2 weeks before elections and so he hires a spin doctor, Robert DeNiro, to help him avert this major image crisis. The movie follows how DeNiro with the help of movie producer Stanley Motss (Dustin Hoffman), manages to convince the public, using media manipulation techniques to create a fake war. The headlines that result from this manipulation soon take precedent over the President's alleged tryst with a young girl.

It is said, that Wag the Dog acted as an inspiration to Bill Clinton; as in less than a month of release, the Clinton-Lewinsky affair became headline news. As the scandal dominated the American Politics then, Clinton engaged in 3-day bombing campaign in Iraq, released a pair of missile strike against Sudan & Afghanistan & ordered a month-long bombing campaign against Serbia. But all of these could not really cover the negativity generated by Monica's testimony of the 9 contacts in the oval office along with the "never sent to laundry" BLUE DRESS!!! It seems THIS BLOW was much more powerful than the blows received by Iraq, Sudan, Afghanistan & Serbia put together ;P

Is It Going To Be the G+ Era?

Does it beat facebook?

is it the new twitter?

OMG... do you mean linkedin on google???

to me, it looks like a clean version of facebook... they say frnship has no boundaries, so shove away the fren list, they made G+ have fren circle (is that really an improvement or juz a different name???)

wanna share bits & pieces with varied audiences??? juz mention which circle to share with... yea... fb has the customization option too... so nothin new...

wanna chat??? they have HANGOUTS... viz juz a fancy name for the already existing google video chat!

so what's new?? for easy back up option, download Picasa photo albums... it has something called sparks that helps you kill free time, provides u with something to read or watch... where does the content come from? NO CLUE!!!

initially i thought that any1 can get an insight on u via G+... now i know that u can customize the same... but i still dislike the fact that any1 can still add u to their circles... so i still am pretty inactive on it... all  ive done on G+ is try & figure it out... so do i like anything about google+ as yet??

yea.. its nick name... G+... G was my old nick name, so i like it... nah... on the serious front... i like its integration with the gmail account... but till now (Note: 10 days aint enuf time to figure something out) thaz the only + point!!!

but i really doubt if it has anyting new to offer... let time tell!!!

The Rise of Yet Another Heartbreaker

You know how chain reactions are… they are like fire in the jungle… you go campfire… a near by twig catches fire… somehow the entire thatch of hay lying around catches fire… the tree nearby catches up to it… passes it on to the next tree which further passes it on to the next one… until the whole bloody jungle is on fire & ultimately burns down to ashes!!! People run about… scream… shout… die… poor animals die… but about a month later… its all cool… no one blames another… after all you get a new land for industrialization!!! Yet, the next time YOU go in the jungle, you are extremely cautious about lighting the fire!!!

Life is like that… it takes you full circle… it triggers the chain reaction… what’s in your past is someone’s future… you give away your heart to someone… you feel they will break it, so you take it back… you continue the give & take, until you find your love… if you’re lucky, you are the forever types & you spread love all around… but if you’re human… then, someone breaks your heart… & this initiates the chain reaction… initially you’re scared to even talk to anyone… even when everyone tells you “HE/SHE is the ONE for you”… but then you come outta it eventually… yet, the fire inside you burns… you walk, talk & act like u used to, but internally you are a different person.

The fire inside you keeps you scared on the inside but you’re calm on the outside… this one looks you in the eye & tells you that he loves you… but you don’t feel the butterflies… you don’t feel your heart smile… you remember that some time ago, you were fooled into believing that you were loved with the same (infact an even more intense) look in the eye… but you say “everyone loves me… not your fault”!!! He does everything he can to impress you… laughs with you… takes you out… holds your hands… all the romantic thing every girl longs… you enjoy the company & make it evident… there are no rules… no expectations… but one day he begins to expect… & you say “I never gave you a commitment” you break his heart & hence arises the new heartbreaker!!!

Heartbreaks are directly linked with expectations from heartbreakers… but dont hate a heartbreaker... cuz little do people realize that heartbreakers are the by products of heartbreaks… It’s as simple as this… just like behind every broken heart – is a heartbreaker… similarly, behind every heartbreaker – is a broken heart!!!

The Social Network

While tryna figure out Google+... i was thinking about the basic rules of social networking... i felt a huge privacy issue there... i have a definitive yes/no towards networking over the net... i may speak to an acquaint over fb... but i will never add them on fb cuz its my private space where i only allow people i trust... but i add any1 on linkedin, cuz i use it only at a professional level... so the more people on my professional network, the better it is...

I could not really figure out the circle funda @ google+, so even though im there... im pretty inactive... its like any1 can add u & get an insight on you... creepy!!!so i thought i'd share some useful tips on using social networking sites with you all:

1. Create & update your professional profile on linkedin, if you have time for fb/google+/orkut, you can definitively have time for linkedin too.

2. add any & evryone who can help you get a job on linkedin, BUT

3. only add people you personally know on fb (especially girls, you can never know anyone's intention, if you have people who you dont know, delete them right away + you compromise your friends privacy as well that way)

4. Keep your wall & info clean, manage your likes (your current/future employers keep a eye on you, they would not like to see XYZ likes the page "Do you have a job? " Yeah, I'm a Full Time ****** Legend"")

5. keep in touch with your faculty, ex-employers, seniors & juniors (you can never know who maybe of help to you tomorrow); just hide certain posts/status/pics from them.

The Advent of the New Crush

“What’s cooking good looking???” Aamu texted me… I said nothing babes… why u asking??? She said I know something is cooking up Geetsiii… i said “will u temme what???” & she said I know someone’s gotta crush on someone… (in my head) rewind… we cut the cake (but Aamu wasn’t there to see me give Rolly a chocolate facial… rewind some more… the HR was screening school of rock… I was fighting with Atul… Aamu said “you guys fight like couples” she also said “stop fighting like brother sister” & she definitely also said “Geetsii relax… cool… calm… I feel like im your mother… you do realize ur elder to me right???”… rewind some more… Farheen treated me & Aamu to a walnut choco cake @ CCD… ok… rewind some more… *blank *blank… so I texted “who u talking about???” & she said “the new guy!” & I was like… r u serious??? & she said… na baby, I was juz kiddin’

So I let it pass… but I was thinking… y would she think like that??? He’s not even in my team… he sits like 2 bays away… I have barely spoken to him… fine people think he looks like Siddharth Maliya… But what did I even do??? Is it because he was sitting next to me during the movie screening @ office??? Now, THAT was just a COINCIDENCE!!!

& then when I was giving Atul a lift back home… he smiled so bright at me & said in the loudest of his voice… im so happy today… my GEETA RAVI is back… & I was like… dude when was I gone??? Why u saying that??? & he said… cuz u’ve become the bubbly cute FOODY geeta that we all love... I said… ive always been eating… every1 calls me foody… the women ask me everyday, how do I manage a petite body with the amount of food I eat… & he said.. yea.. thaz alrite… but today u were different… & TODAY u were FLIRTING… well hello… who did I flirt with??? & spat came the reply “the new guy!” & I was like.. what u talking about Atul… & he said im kiddin!!!

So I told him… u know aamu told me the very same thing & when I questioned, she also said IM KIDDIN… & he said… hain na… I knew it.. its so evident… I said, yea rite… I was sittin @ my position… he was shuttling between his workstation & next to me… & Atul said, yea rite… I saw u checking him out… no amount of reasoning can stand tall in front of Atul’s perception, so bcuz I was lookin at him & speakn to him during the movie… I am flirtn with him??? & he said… no man… u were… dint u see… he likes everything u do/say… well… every body likes & loves evrythn I do/say cuz every1 considers me a bachha… but the verdict was laid out by then “im telling u geeta… YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM!!!”

The Low Maintenance Girl

About 2 weeks ago… my colleague, Farheen, was doing what we call a “dip stick” on personal well being… she asked Aditya, my immediate senior … “tentatively how much do you spend on your well being” & he said ZERO.. she said “expected” & turned to me… just when I was thinking, aditya answered on my behalf… “im sure zero, cuz well being dusn include your regular waxing & threading”… & I just smiled at Farheen & said, thaz true!!!

Its true… I NEVER spend for well being… all I pamper myself to is “personal hygiene” & yea, I call it pampering cuz Atul, yet another colleague points it out to me “YOU NEED blah blah blah”… I swear, I would do anything to trade off my gender… cuz if I were the opposite sex, I could evade the useless time for well being as well as related questions… unlike Atul, I wouldn’t know everything about anything when it comes to well being/hygiene… from waxing (chocolate to Brazilian) to threading (thank God he has never pointed that 1 out to me) to manicure to pedicure to blackheads to exotic massages to bleaching to facials to body spas even hair spas to I don’t even know man. His salon knowledge amuses me & my ignorance amazes him!!!

God man… I mean, all I head to a salon is for waxing & threading… that’s it… I have been a victim of severe acne & my sister & my mom get boils when they get a facial done (still they get it), so I NEVER risk with my skin… I never got a facial or a face cleaning or a face mask thingy done cuz I am so allergic to multani mitti… I don’t believe in massages cuz I know so many people who get addicted to them & cant move a bone without a massage… all I get done is a foot massage that too maybe twice a year… I even wear my own bloody makeup on my own (when I do, that is)... its not that I don’t wanna spend money on such stuff… its just that I don’t wanna punish my skin by getting into all of it in the 1^st place + I like things my way… I mean, bcuz I don’t like the way most hairdressers shorten my mane, I even cut my hair on my own… I’ve made my own blunders but I have learned!!!

I am a gharelu nuska kina girl… use potato for bleach… neem paste for detox… tomato for toning… curd & pepper for cleansing… honey for shine… cucumber for de-stressing… & these happen like once in a blue moon… the only thing I do on a daily basis is use rose gel & johnsons baby cream @ moisturizing post a facewash… unlike other women, I don’t use a foundation, concealer, blush, eye shadow & a lipper on a daily basis… all I wear is a liner/kajal & chap stick… manicure... pedicure... nail filing...yea right... when my nails grow this long (see pic @ right)... i cut it to the base... that's when my ring proves that its a girl's hand (i bought this 1 from my 1st job... still love it)

sometimes, when I see the pretty ladies around me, see how they look, behave (esp eat… I toh binge on food)… I really wonder why God dint make me a man… cuz a NO maintenance man is acceptable in the society… but a LOW maintenance girl faces embarrassment when people ask her “how much do you spend on personal wellbeing???”

My Bad

Have you ever been screamed at for a mistake you didn’t commit? Have you been in that situation when you cannot respond to the blame? Did you feel your ears burn up? Did you feel the trembling of your body & soul outta anger? Did you feel your tonsils hurt because of the saliva drying up inside your mouth? Did you hear a f*** you in your head when the words that came out were sorry? Why does sorry seem to be a hard word then? Why is it so hard to say sorry when you know you’re right???

You may say “cuz its against my morals”… hmmm… okhay... true that… I absolutely buy that… but then why is it so hard to say that you’re sorry when it WAS your mistake? Why do you still feel your ears burning up in flames? Why does your body still tremble? Why does your mouth still dry up? Why do you still wanna say a f*** you? Do you have any reason except the fact that your FAT EGO ain’t letting you accept that you can be wrong???

How can I describe these emotions that YOU feel so vividly? Well… cuz im human too… even though I know the difference between right & wrong & even though I know when am I absolutely right & when there are chances of faulting & that I am taking a risk… I still take that risk which ends up being a mistake… & my ego TOO does not wanna accept that my decision WAS WRONG!

But you know… these mistakes are your learning curve… this mistakes make you the smart a** that you wish to be eventually… So im not afraid… to make mistakes… it is & will always be hard to say im sorry… yet, accepting that you were not right is the 1^st step towards getting it right… make your mistake… apologize… but most importantly learn from it… & become a better person!!!